*The room is quiet. Nyx-Warda is somewhere indoors. As she speaks, her voice is something like her usual narrative, but you can tell there's something else on her mind as well.*
I spoke to Keren today, this time I called him to ask about Ashla. From what she told me, he and her talked a little bit while I was passed out the last time. I thought that maybe he would be able to help with her questions, having had a taste of them himself.
After I explained the situation, he suggested that I put Ashla herself on the comm. Hehe, she liked that a lot. I don't know if she knows that I was listening behind her, but it was interesting to see how she interacted with him. She's always so quiet and shy, but she was able to carry on a strong little conversation, and even make sense of it. It seems that she does understand a good deal more than I give her credit for, but that she was afraid to understand things because they might scare her. I fear it was a reflection of my own concern that I would scare her by telling her the truth as I understand it. She said she wants to learn anyway, though, even if she's scared. I was surprised that she even quoted snippets of the Ceterus oath. I have to remember to not be afraid to be straightforward with her, though she is young.
She certainly thought herself very grown-up when she came to give the comm. back to me. *She imitates her daughter's voice* "And he said 'May the fo'ce be with you' to me!!" *She resumes her normal voice as she continues* Heheh.. I think she'll be all right.
When I got back on with Keren, he asked me how Lawrence and I were holding up. I gave him a status report, but even though there have been no threats to our safety, he seemed disappointed by the news. He said I shouldn't be focusing on combat... but I thought that's what he had asked of me. In any case, he said I was too eager to return to the fight. Eager isn't the word.. but it's as I was telling him before, when he didn't believe me. I didn't want to explain again. He knows. He's never seen it. He won't believe it when I tell him. ...but he knows.
Thankfully, he changed the subject and asked how we were doing outside of combat. When I told him I was still here, he suggested that he should talk to Lawrence, scince he hadn't been giving me any information lately. While they were talking, though, something changed. Something upset Lawrence, and for a moment, I could see through his attempts to mask himself from me. I'm afraid for him. He's locked himself in his office meditating. I have to talk to him. Keren told me "If youre going into hell, go in with good intel" and that we're both in the ninth circle without a star to fly by. I've been waiting in the--
*There's a buzzing and whooshing sound as the strong door behind her flies open. The steady footsteps come closer, and stop short.*
Nyx-Warda? What are you doing down here?
*Her voice moves father away as she stands to meet him.*
I need to talk to you..
No, I you. It's time I told you what's going on.
I would rather know what's going on with you first. What happened? Why wouldn't you let me in the office? Why did you--
That is part of what I was going to tell you. You know I am only acting on what I think is best for you, but if what I'm doing has driven you away in any way, you must tell me now.
That's not it at all, Lawrence. I'm just afraid.. I know you're worried. I don't want to be trouble for you here. I don't want you to think that this phantom will get in my way on a mission. I don't want you think that I can't fight, or that I can't handle the danger. I couldn't forgive myself if I caused you to live in that kind of fear.
That has never been the case. Even when you were weakened by the carbonite I knew you had the strength to face a thousand. ...but there are other kinds of strength. There are kinds which you still must learn to understand. I had to take you away from the fight so you could see them. You only learned to see through the force after you could no longer see through your eyes. Perhaps if you could no longer see through battle, you could learn to see beyond it.
Why didn't you tell me?
Because it's not something you can understand with words alone. You have to see it. I had hoped that I could show it to you... the way you showed me when you saved me from the dark side.
I don't understand.. what could I have shown you that I don't know myself?
The strength that you have, but you don't understand. The strength of the light that comes from faith... from honor... and goodwill... and hope... and loyalty...
....and love.
*There's a sound as if she's about to speak, but it's quickly quieted. Instead, there is the distant sound of a soft kiss.*
*END*
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I spoke to Keren today, this time I called him to ask about Ashla. From what she told me, he and her talked a little bit while I was passed out the last time. I thought that maybe he would be able to help with her questions, having had a taste of them himself.
After I explained the situation, he suggested that I put Ashla herself on the comm. Hehe, she liked that a lot. I don't know if she knows that I was listening behind her, but it was interesting to see how she interacted with him. She's always so quiet and shy, but she was able to carry on a strong little conversation, and even make sense of it. It seems that she does understand a good deal more than I give her credit for, but that she was afraid to understand things because they might scare her. I fear it was a reflection of my own concern that I would scare her by telling her the truth as I understand it. She said she wants to learn anyway, though, even if she's scared. I was surprised that she even quoted snippets of the Ceterus oath. I have to remember to not be afraid to be straightforward with her, though she is young.
She certainly thought herself very grown-up when she came to give the comm. back to me. *She imitates her daughter's voice* "And he said 'May the fo'ce be with you' to me!!" *She resumes her normal voice as she continues* Heheh.. I think she'll be all right.
When I got back on with Keren, he asked me how Lawrence and I were holding up. I gave him a status report, but even though there have been no threats to our safety, he seemed disappointed by the news. He said I shouldn't be focusing on combat... but I thought that's what he had asked of me. In any case, he said I was too eager to return to the fight. Eager isn't the word.. but it's as I was telling him before, when he didn't believe me. I didn't want to explain again. He knows. He's never seen it. He won't believe it when I tell him. ...but he knows.
Thankfully, he changed the subject and asked how we were doing outside of combat. When I told him I was still here, he suggested that he should talk to Lawrence, scince he hadn't been giving me any information lately. While they were talking, though, something changed. Something upset Lawrence, and for a moment, I could see through his attempts to mask himself from me. I'm afraid for him. He's locked himself in his office meditating. I have to talk to him. Keren told me "If youre going into hell, go in with good intel" and that we're both in the ninth circle without a star to fly by. I've been waiting in the--
*There's a buzzing and whooshing sound as the strong door behind her flies open. The steady footsteps come closer, and stop short.*
Nyx-Warda? What are you doing down here?
*Her voice moves father away as she stands to meet him.*
I need to talk to you..
No, I you. It's time I told you what's going on.
I would rather know what's going on with you first. What happened? Why wouldn't you let me in the office? Why did you--
That is part of what I was going to tell you. You know I am only acting on what I think is best for you, but if what I'm doing has driven you away in any way, you must tell me now.
That's not it at all, Lawrence. I'm just afraid.. I know you're worried. I don't want to be trouble for you here. I don't want you to think that this phantom will get in my way on a mission. I don't want you think that I can't fight, or that I can't handle the danger. I couldn't forgive myself if I caused you to live in that kind of fear.
That has never been the case. Even when you were weakened by the carbonite I knew you had the strength to face a thousand. ...but there are other kinds of strength. There are kinds which you still must learn to understand. I had to take you away from the fight so you could see them. You only learned to see through the force after you could no longer see through your eyes. Perhaps if you could no longer see through battle, you could learn to see beyond it.
Why didn't you tell me?
Because it's not something you can understand with words alone. You have to see it. I had hoped that I could show it to you... the way you showed me when you saved me from the dark side.
I don't understand.. what could I have shown you that I don't know myself?
The strength that you have, but you don't understand. The strength of the light that comes from faith... from honor... and goodwill... and hope... and loyalty...
....and love.
*There's a sound as if she's about to speak, but it's quickly quieted. Instead, there is the distant sound of a soft kiss.*
*END*
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