We did not find Sain, when we went to look for him. He found us. He appeared on his own terms, and disappeared without a trace. He left behind him only more unanswered questions that when he appeared.
I admit I was too hasty. Too impatient. My plan to use myself as bait went... badly. I wasn't as ready for him as I thought I was, and we learned nothing. I even dragged Keren into it, and now, though he came only to help me, he blamed himself for Sain's latest crime. So he didn't stop it? So maybe he couldn't have. "Be careful what you wish for" he said, as Keren demanded that he remove the phantom and reverse his experiments' effects. I was surprised he did it. Or.... seemed to do it. I don't know what happened.
I no longer sense another presence, but the nightmares.. the visions.. the shadows.. voices in my ear... they're still there. The more I think of it, the more I remember Muaarga's words back in Crimson ridge. Maybe my fears were not misplaced. Maybe my troubles, then, do come from living the way I have these years, and are just the echoes of the darkness I've brought upon my enemies. What if I did need the phantom after all? It was so simple, before, when I knew who my enemy was. Now everything is even more chaotic than it ever was.
*For a moment, that hard, stubborn spark in her voice lights up again.*
Thank the force, I tend to thrive on Chaos.
*She clears her throat, and continues her narrative.*
I am recovering, physically at least. Lawrence took me to Keela-ri in River Haven. I have to appreciate what an adept healer she has become. She was able to repair the marks of corruption Sain left behind when he forced the phantom away, and gave me enough energy to begin to recover what he drained from me. Keren went off to try to find Sain again. I hope he knows what he's doing. In a way, I hope he doesn't find him yet. I fear that it would only be an echo of the mess we just got out of.
*END*
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I admit I was too hasty. Too impatient. My plan to use myself as bait went... badly. I wasn't as ready for him as I thought I was, and we learned nothing. I even dragged Keren into it, and now, though he came only to help me, he blamed himself for Sain's latest crime. So he didn't stop it? So maybe he couldn't have. "Be careful what you wish for" he said, as Keren demanded that he remove the phantom and reverse his experiments' effects. I was surprised he did it. Or.... seemed to do it. I don't know what happened.
I no longer sense another presence, but the nightmares.. the visions.. the shadows.. voices in my ear... they're still there. The more I think of it, the more I remember Muaarga's words back in Crimson ridge. Maybe my fears were not misplaced. Maybe my troubles, then, do come from living the way I have these years, and are just the echoes of the darkness I've brought upon my enemies. What if I did need the phantom after all? It was so simple, before, when I knew who my enemy was. Now everything is even more chaotic than it ever was.
*For a moment, that hard, stubborn spark in her voice lights up again.*
Thank the force, I tend to thrive on Chaos.
*She clears her throat, and continues her narrative.*
I am recovering, physically at least. Lawrence took me to Keela-ri in River Haven. I have to appreciate what an adept healer she has become. She was able to repair the marks of corruption Sain left behind when he forced the phantom away, and gave me enough energy to begin to recover what he drained from me. Keren went off to try to find Sain again. I hope he knows what he's doing. In a way, I hope he doesn't find him yet. I fear that it would only be an echo of the mess we just got out of.
*END*
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