*She sounds a little disconnected and confused as she speaks.*
I was too careful.. or not careful enough..
I was so scared of letting them know the truth, that I hid it so well, that even I have lost touch with much of it. So many false memories.. though when one of the true ones is sparked I know it a little better. It's like waking from a dream, and figuring out after the fact which parts did not make sense.
I get ahead of myself.
We were on a mission, Derec and I. Keren! Keren and I. We were slicing the computor, but we got captured. No.. that wasn't the real objective.. No. It was that woman who betrayed us. We were going after her. We were to save her. We... failed. We were in there for five days.. Much of it was a blur to me. Keren escaped. They let me go. We had to leave Diana, the woman. There is more.. there were others.. but I don't remember what is real and what I made myself remember to tell our captors.
In spite of this failure, Lawrence is proud of me.. a master of disguise himself.. I expect it is because I have gone to such lengths to perserve the cover. I do not know if I am proud. The mission has failed. Keren and the others have suffered. It was not worth it.. was it?
Even if we lost this battle, was it worth it to try?
*END*
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I was too careful.. or not careful enough..
I was so scared of letting them know the truth, that I hid it so well, that even I have lost touch with much of it. So many false memories.. though when one of the true ones is sparked I know it a little better. It's like waking from a dream, and figuring out after the fact which parts did not make sense.
I get ahead of myself.
We were on a mission, Derec and I. Keren! Keren and I. We were slicing the computor, but we got captured. No.. that wasn't the real objective.. No. It was that woman who betrayed us. We were going after her. We were to save her. We... failed. We were in there for five days.. Much of it was a blur to me. Keren escaped. They let me go. We had to leave Diana, the woman. There is more.. there were others.. but I don't remember what is real and what I made myself remember to tell our captors.
In spite of this failure, Lawrence is proud of me.. a master of disguise himself.. I expect it is because I have gone to such lengths to perserve the cover. I do not know if I am proud. The mission has failed. Keren and the others have suffered. It was not worth it.. was it?
Even if we lost this battle, was it worth it to try?
*END*
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